i am really trying to get motivated. its not just about me graduating and get my diploma, get transfer of credentials for my enrollment in another university. then i can pursue my masters in social psychology. everything is just about academics. there's is no meaning.
on the other hand, i have always wanted a masters in psychology and even a doctorate degree, but i dont know if that's what i want now. in fact i dont even know i want anymore. i feel so lost, and empty, and alone. this ain't a nice feeling, but this is also overwhelming. these feelings come and go. everything's gonna be alright. at least, its the only assurance can give my self. i have to get over with it.
okay so, what now? it has to start by managing my time, which what i am trained to do. i help people manage their time, i couldn't manage mine, and that's a slap to my face.
the only way i can manage my time is to delay gratification. as a child, delay gratification is easy, but now i couldn't put my mind to it. lately, i have been procrastinating and its not a good sign. im not usually easily distracted by anything. what could distract me? well....books, movies and tv series distract me all the time or im allowing them to distract me. so, i figured something should be done, and quick. so, i have to set a goal. by wednesday, i have to finish my portfolio, and submit it by thursday. the thing is, i don't know where to begin. maybe i should begin to where i should start. (whatever that means)..
okay that's cool.
- 00:34:26: high-pitched, with a seeming echo on it--the voice--supernatural to my ears, heartwarming and honest. the voice that seeks comfort soothes.
- 00:36:48: RT @Pullmyfingers: "We are made to persist. That's how we find out who we are."
- 00:37:44: Charlaine Harris - Sookie Stackhouse 04 - Dead to the World
- 04:00:11: RT @chymera00: Fuente Osmeña Circle – a Landmark in Cebu City http://9mqen.th8.us
- 04:01:05: finished the 4th book. loved it very much. girl meets boy, boy meets girl, boy loses girl for another, girl meets another & loses again. sad
- 04:06:05: can't wait to read the next books, but its time commit my self with school-related work. no books & movies til im done (except NGC tonight)
- 04:07:50: NatGeo's easter mysteries about Jesus Christ sounds compelling. i wouldn't miss it for anything not even school work. so later...then..
- 04:16:07: god! even if i promised not to get tempted, i couldn't help myself. im enthralled. i couldn't stop. the urge is killing me. i have to read!
- 04:18:39: i have to know what happened between them...i have to know if they'd ever you know** got back together or was the separation for good? damn!
- 04:29:03: oh god that's so weird! im so freakin weird!
- 04:30:08: @owrange showing na ang clash of the titans??? on 3D???
- 04:30:34: @owrange that's so lousy i didn't know.. haha
- 04:30:50: i have never felt such marvel since the last time i occupied my self with a good book---or good books for that matter..
- 04:30:58: that was goodkind's then---a totally different genre---and i miss them all.. **its fascinating and really unexpected.
- 04:33:21: okay, perhaps i should be in a self-hypnotic trance to set my mind not to be tempted, to remind me that my goal is to delay gratification...
- 04:44:08: i need motivation. if it was ever for sale like a candy wrapped, i would have bought a dozen motivation, a pack or more..
- 05:28:44: guess im not doing anything productive at all. i haven't started anything. i don't know where and how to begin. i have a deadline to meet.
- 05:40:33: @owrange aw. Really? Too bad, but i know there's 2D available, right?
- 05:46:03: and i end up watching GFORCE.. #film
- 05:49:18: cute little hamsters and mouse.. :)
- 05:57:08: oh, my mistake. guinea pigs.. haha
- 07:12:14: now that was unattractive but to hell with you all! what matters is i feel good and i dont need you.
- 07:27:52: now that was unattractive but to hell with you all! what matters is im not hurting anyone, i feel good, and i dont need you. goodbye.
- 07:58:24: i thought i missed the great easter mysteries on #NGC but thank god i was wrong. its coming up next.
- 08:03:50: #nowplaying Secrets of the 10 Plagues: The First Curses @ #NGC #eastermysteries #documentaryfilm
- 08:06:18: saw #BBC's Exodus &the 10 Plagues which offered a good scientific explanation of the plagues. will see if #NGC has the same explanation.
- 08:17:01: which reminds me...i have to get a copy of BBC's Exodus and the 10 Plagues..
- 08:18:36: alright, this is different, something not discussed in BBC's..
- 08:23:36: there's a hole in this film..no one explained how the land x-ray equipment works. i see no more than an anomaly but i cant be sure either
- 08:57:38: incomplete. i am hoping for part 2 tomorrow..
- 18:39:59: hello world..good morning tweeters.. :)
- 19:27:43: mum wants me at the office, and she insists. im in the middle of an important endeavor, but i need to cut it so i can do her an errand.
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