man (literally the word is gender insensitive, but let me just use the word "man" to refer to both sexes or genders) is a purposive being, phenomenologically existing, and living the transient borrowed life in this planet, which is only a flyspeck in the cosmic universe. man has an end as gautama buddha said "all composite things are doomed to extinction." man as a composite being then, is subjected to his fate.if only i was like veronika, death would have been easier, unfortunately i am as sane (or rather insane) as you and as fearful to death as majority of people living in the cosmos.
in just as i am curious as a cat, i am wondering how it was like to be in veronika's neurotic mind, or more like psychotic than neurotic since i already am the former like everyone in the planet is. freud said we have a degree of insanity in all of us. he and other psychologists, psychotherapists, psychoanalysts are not an exemption, nor am i or you.
so what is man's purpose then? death is his or her purpose as people would say, but existentialist victor frankl said that man must find meaning in life. meaning varies according to individuals and changes depending on the situation. frankl added that we can find meaning in love, in work and others. it is not necessary that we have a meaning in life in general sense but meaning in all aspects of the parts that make up the whole.
i am blogging now because i find meaning in this endeavor as i find meaning in reading or in going to school or in working. veronika found meaning in death and so she decided on giving up the life that was given to her. it was freedom that she found, and she took the opportunity than let it pass.yes, suicide is psychologically a form of escape pattern as dissociative disorders are. but verinoka sees it otherwise. perhaps, in order to really understand the human psyche is to look at things in a neurotic's or psychotic's perspective, and dig deep than depend on what are written on books--theories. every individual is unique, and so is she, you and me. before i read the book i thought what it was like to be journeying in veronika's mind.
i am suddenly reminded of the movie "the cell" starred by jennifer lopez. she was a child psychologist who journeys through the mind of a comatosed serial killer to find a missing girl. it was then that she found the morbid events that happened to him as a child that influenced his later personality. the task wasn't easy but she understood what it was like to be trapped with the darkest of the memories the human psyche has.
while i was reading veronika, it was like journeying through her mind, knowing and understanding her narrow but meaningful perspective. she finds meaning in her situation and she was even happy even if she decides to end it all.
- 00:06:33: Photo: (via lesfemmes) #femme #girls #female http://tumblr.com/xun456ih3
- 00:07:15: Photo: (via lesfemmes) #femme #girl #smoke http://tumblr.com/xun456ivc
- 00:10:58: Lindsay Lohan - A Little More Personal (2005) http://mltp.ly/1ljypz2
- 00:11:14: Lindsay Lohan - Speak (2004) http://mltp.ly/f1hD3Zm
- 00:11:17: Tokio Hotel - Scream (2008) http://mltp.ly/8kz6PkY
- 00:11:24: Boyce Avenue - Boyce Avenue (2008) http://mltp.ly/2WSMzMk
- 00:11:30: Divinefire - Farewell (2008) http://mltp.ly/6nIwVl6
- 00:12:05: Photo: bohemea: Bridget Jones’ Diary #film #movie #photo http://tumblr.com/xun456llj
- 00:16:25: Photo: (via androgynizeme) #genderqueer #female http://tumblr.com/xun456nyb
- 01:49:30: students are having library work today..
- 01:51:54: now im already reading the part on economics that bores me..graphs and more graphs..
- 01:59:59: @ajshadowcat08 naa kai econ nga book?
- 02:11:14: @ajshadowcat08 haha napugos tawn kog palit atong libroha pirting mahala nya ambot asa 2 nko gilabay2 oi..
- 02:29:06: im finally going home..
- 05:12:55: will lose yet another set of cooking on cafe world because of the evil entity lurking around..
- 05:16:35: angry with his presence. i always lose my composure when he's around. he does things that makes me f* angry
- 05:40:06: next on reading list is an article on mental hygiene..whatever that means.
- 05:56:59: @Noot54 well according to this article, it means healthy thinking, wanting, feeling, and behaving..
- 06:01:37: people are too over sensitive, and look who's talking!
- 06:16:24: @Noot54 not exactly about cleaning a dirty mind but on changing one's goals from ego-driven to goals for harmonious living with others.
- 06:34:40: "Man on earth is like a guest in a big house which becomes his home for the span of his life." -Frederic Feichtinger
- 06:35:16: "Let man always stand on two healthy legs, one of self-interest, and the other of social and universal interest." -Frederic Feichtinger
- 07:09:17: "Only if we no longer will he impossible, do we get a glimpse of the possible." -Kierkegaard
- 20:58:08: cleaning my inbox..
- 22:13:23: reading 'did oedipus have an oedipus complex?'
- 22:40:14: freud missed out important psychological aspects in eodipus' life--his inferiority complex & his struggle for power & wisdom.
- 22:48:27: it wasn't oedipus' sex impulse that drove him to his mother but the longing for security & protection which directed his sex impulse.
- 23:00:14: its cold..
- 23:49:06: Photo: cosmic-dust: #green #weird #photo #photography http://tumblr.com/xun45tm1h
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